Hello soul friends,
Let’s chat about the magic of curiosity.
Interestingly enough - I’ve had some patterns resurfacing that don’t serve my highest good.
This includes negative self talk, escapism, and sloth like energy.
Of course I was angry with myself at first. Angry for allowing myself to sink back into things I thought I had conquered.
Then the spiral - I teach how to become the best version of yourself and create a life full of love yet here I am being an imposter. Struggling. Facing this internal battle. How can I be such a hypocrite?
And then I decided to practice what I preach.
Eyes closed, with the intention of full self love for all these parts of myself.
Embracing full curiosity. Letting the judgmental voice fade away.
“What is the part of me that wants to escape? Why does this part of me want that? What does this part of me need?”
I felt a sudden pull of energy in my throat and stomach area. Truth and power. There is a part of me protecting myself and my own power because of wounding in the past.
The fear of this happening again created this protector part. To protect against pain, against shame.
Tears filling my eyes - all I felt was gratitude for this part of me. Thank you for protecting me. I see you now. I understand you now. I love you.
As soon as I finished, I felt a flood of energy into my stomach area. I felt excited to create once again.
I know this won’t be the last time old patterns arise - but it will be the last time I hate that part of myself.
